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A ghostly shadow reflects,
Onto my hand,
Through my arm,
Into my body.
Corrupting everything it touches
Corrupting me;
Throughout my body,
Into my mind,
Destroying my soul.
My heart is my last fortress,
Waging a war against all.
Body verses heart,
Heart attacking soul,
Mind against heart.
All that remains;
My heart,
A falling fortress,
Barely surviving
Useless reinforcements.
A strong heart stands weakened.
Fading to death.
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False Truths
False truths run through my head,
Tears flow through my eyes,
Never passing my eye lids.
A torrent of pain rages.
I hear an absolute truth,
My eternal tears reside,
My eyes dry up,
A temporary dam has been built.
A few days of happiness will come,
The dam will break,
The Tears will again flow.
I'm happy for today,
It maybe be only today,
The future is the future,
The present is today,
The present is all that matters.
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Spiraling, Spinning
Thoughts are spinning
In my mind
Through my heart
To my soul
Coming and going
Never changing
Remembrance
Pain
Love
Hate
All killing the heart
From the beginning to the end
Spiraling, spinning
Drilling,
Through my heart
Through my soul
Though me
From life to death
It lives inside me
It kills me slowly
It is me.
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The Silence Sits
The silence sits,
And I stand here,
In the dark, in the night
None can see,
None can hear,
The silence sits,
And I stand here.
In the dark,
In the night,
I look around,
I see nothing,
In the dark,
In the night.
None can see,
None can hear,
I live,
Silence lives,
I die,
The dark dies,
None can see,
None can hear.
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A Bet
My mind sits in waste,
Waiting for that sweet taste,
Imagination runs free,
It became all I can see.
Delusions of joy,
Made of a ploy,
Innocence annihilated,
Another heart is devastated.
Strengths saves me from pain,
Sexual destruction of her brain,
Attained happiness?
Confusion viewed through a mist.
Could it be an end,
To the best friend trend.
Beginning of true affection
A new connection?
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Psychosis and normality
Seeming the same to me
I can't change how I am
Everyday I feel a pain
I am loosing my mind
I see people in new ways
The insane, my brethren
The sane, a lie.
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Glossy Black Vision
A glossy black cloud above
A small hole forms
Like a tiny hurricane
I can peer through
Only to see her
A love of mine
That dies daily
With her innocents
Dies my love
My knowledge
My pain
My love
Weave a circle
'round me and strangles
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Burning a hole through my soul
Eating everything I am
Staining everything I can be
An disease in side of me
It has become a plague
The Black Death that is me
Infesting my body
Killing my friends
From the inside out
Like a traitor
I've conned my way
I'm in too deep
I'm going to self-destruct
Every week it changes
In and out here and there
Be coming a grifter
Conning my way through
This black death chasing
I will run but I will die
I can't run from it
It is inside me
It is done for me
I am gone. |
